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Still

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , on June 29, 2013 by runmyssierun

This morning was kinda hard for me to get up. I spent a good portion of yesterday with my coach, Sandy Overly, going over goals, nutrition and new strength exercises. She had me focus on one leg at a time and I was really taken back at how weak my left leg was. 

Determined to change this… I spent some time trying to re-do the exercises last night again. Big mistake. I think I may have overdone it a bit. My run this morning was strong when I blasted off… but didn’t last long at all. And then as soon as my legs cooled off a bit, soreness set in and now I walk like I’ve been riding a horse for a hundred years.

Aside from the muscle fatigue, the emotional side set in as well. News of Sandra’s father (who has pancreatic cancer) hit me hard. Last night she posted a very candid and vulnerable submission on facebook. One that I connected very well with. 

“I wait for my family to go to sleep before I breakdown in tears-tears I hold inside all day from the moment I wake up! I have accepted the news we received 12 days ago! Stage IV Advanced Pancreatic Cancer Spreading to his Liver and Suffering from Dimentia! Surgery & Chemo not an Option with 2/3 months! I know this beast is going to take my Daddy’s lif, but down deep, I subconsciously believe that he could be Saved! It KILLS me inside with what he goes thru everyday! My brothers tell me about his extreme agitation, the continued rapid loss of weight, and how he most of the time doesn’t know who they are! My Daddy says, “SIR, can you please take me home!” My little brother Mike responds, “Dad, you are home” I raise my hands up in glory knowing what increidble brothers I have! Their lives have come to a screeching halt taking care of our Daddy! They are soo strong when they talk to me and give me details about everything BUT I know how much they hurt and cry! I write this as a eans of healing for myself! 13 more days until I see my Daddy again! I miss him and I feel so much sadness! I LOVE YOU DADDY!”

Still too many people out there who hurt like I do for people we love.

Happy Birthday Sissy

Posted in Uncategorized on June 25, 2013 by runmyssierun
Sissy

Sissy

Posted in Uncategorized on June 25, 2013 by runmyssierun

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Where the magic happens

Posted in Uncategorized on June 24, 2013 by runmyssierun
The 5a.m. Cycling group escorted me on today's ride.

The 5a.m. Cycling group escorted me on today’s ride.

A year or two ago ago, where I am at currently would have been outside of my comfort zone. I wasn’t a runner but I had the courage and determination to join a group of encouraging runners that I DID NOT KNOW PERSONALLY and stuck with them, soaked up all the advice they gave me and ran with it… yes, that pun was intended 🙂

Now I find myself in a new arena. I gradually went from running to triathlon that allowed me to keep my comfortable running friends who continued to encourage and feed me with advice and support. From there, I have jumped into this century ride challenge and have few (but solid) connections now with the run group.

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On Saturday, I found myself back on the trail with the runners for a short two mile trek as the new Fall season of Team In Training formed to train for the Nike Women’s Marathon in San Francisco, the San Antonio Rock & Roll Marathon and the McAllen Marathon. I knew no one… well, except Sarah (our honored hero) who has now become completely enamored with Vero and would not smile for the camera unless Vero was in the picture! They were all new fresh faces that were eager and scared to either run their first marathon or challenge themselves into getting back into the shape that they had when they were on the high school cross country team or those fabulous 20’s that we all loved. They were me two years ago. Uncomfortable.

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But I was home. I felt so comfortable there with them. Peering over their heads as Janie gave us her “Mission Moment”, I saw a handful of the girls from my Run Walk or Crawl run group on the trail across from the Valley Running Company parking lot. More of my “Homies”. I was being constantly reminded of everything that made me comfortable.

That’s when it hit me.

You know that voice inside your head that tells you to quit? That one was quiet.

The OTHER one was speaking…

“Get out of your comfort zone, Myssie! Let the magic happen,” She said. “It’s time to trust in Him again as He leads you into the next part of your journey. It hasn’t been all rainbows and butterflies. It’s been tough. In fact, this journey has been the toughest part of your life so far hasn’t it? And He never left your side. Did he? ”

You know… you’re right. God never left me. It WAS hard. I know it will continue to be hard. But He really IS there for me.

I’ve gone through some devastating personal issues over these last few years. I’ve been brought to my knees, soaked in tears and wanted to give up on this world more times than I care to remember. But I’m still here.

And I’m ready to push myself into the next uncomfortable place. I’m ready for that miracle.

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This week, everything changes…. again.

I will do something that I’ve never done with people I don’t really know. I will learn all I can from all types of athletes of various sports… and will communicate it all to my coach to finally ask her “why” so I can learn even more. I will no longer train in a group that I feel comfortable in – where great friendships are formed – but force myself to not give up when I am alone… when the cheers are gone… when no one is looking.

I will go where the magic happens.

Thank you to the 5A.M. Cycling group who allowed me to join them this past weekend on their long ride. Thank you for not dropping me and walking me through each gear change as every little hill came up or the wind changed. Thank you for your patience and encouragement. Thank you for making me feel like one of your own. 🙂

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Fighting Fire with Fire

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , on June 20, 2013 by runmyssierun

The following video was shared with me today on my facebook wall. It is posts like this one, scientists like the ones featured here and patients that are living life as it should be that push me further and further. I know we are close to a cure now. I feel it!!!

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Posted in Uncategorized on June 19, 2013 by runmyssierun

I took a 2 hour bike ride in the middle of the afternoon so I could train in 100 degree heat to get acclimated to the desert heat of Las Vegas.

I should have gone further than I did for 2 hours but I was IN the city with crazy drivers. I fell once and almost got hit twice so I slowed it down to keep myself alive!!! I learned quickly that the city I live in is not yet suited for cyclists on the road. But I was determined to get my miles in and time on the saddle in the heat. Soooo I went where I knew I was safe… The jogging trail. 😦

With so many stops and shade trees, the training didn’t go as we’ll as planned but at least it was something.

I did get to see lots of people I knew on the road though!!! That made me feel a bit safer. This city now recognizes me in the orange and riding the orange bike. I’m kinda hard to miss… Unless your texting and driving or talking on a cell phone. (Like those two drivers were)

I found that only one fountain was working on the 2nd street trail and were full of bees. I found that the cross signal buttons on Trenton do not work.

What has happened to the city I was once so proud of?

I found myself getting angrier by the minute!!! I was halfway into my ride and was already shaking with anger and fear so I changed my music to calm me down. I remembered Baby E and that she had just had her spinal tap this morning. How can I be angry and full of fear when this child just did that and then asked for Jason’s Deli afterwards?!?

I quit my gritchin and kept riding.

I felt my knee swelling from the fall. And there it was… You know that annoying voice… “Myssie, you can’t do this. Give up. No one is watching anyway. Just quit.”

But it is when no one is watching that the miracles happen to me.

All it took was her breeze. And I knew… Yes, she was watching. She was watching over me.

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10 Life Lessons

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , on June 18, 2013 by runmyssierun

TEN LIFE LESSONS

Life Lesson Number 10

DEAL WITH LIFE ONE DAY AT A TIME

Sometimes when life gets crazy we feel like we’ll never sort everything out. But if we just deal with everything one day and instance at a time, life just has a way or working through things. It also makes life’s circumstances a little less overwhelming.

 

Life Lesson Number 9

TURN EVERY LIFE EXPERIENCE INTO A LEARNING EXPERIENCE

The best way I have found to cope with hard times more easily is to become knowledgeable about what is going on and try to find a meaning to everything that happens. Trust me, there is always one there.

 

Life Lesson Number 8

ALWAYS LOOK FOR THE POSITIVE

No matter how bad life can get, there is always a positive to be found. If you focus on the positive aspects of life, the hard times are easier to get through. The power of positive thinking is amazing and it works.

 

Life Lesson Number 7

TRY TO DO AT LEAST ONE NEW THING EVERY DAY

Much too often, people get into a routine of doing the same thing every day and their lives get boring. The new thing doesn’t have to be big. It can be something really small like taking a different route to work or trying a new kind of food. Make a wish list for yourself of new stuff you want to try. Some things can be small and others, big. Plan on completing one of those things each day and by the end of every day your life will be that much more full.

 

Life Lesson Number 6

BE TRUE TO YOURSELF

No matter what happens in your life if you are true to yourself and confident about who you are, you can overcome anything. Always stick to who you are and don’t worry if people are going to accept you or not. If you are confident with yourself, it will show and the people who really matter will accept you for who you are, not for who you are not.

 

Life Lesson Number 5

TOUCH AS MANY LIVES AS YOU CAN

Every time you meet someone new, you leave a little bit of yourself with them. They are affected by you. The more people you meet, the more complete both their and your lives are because of how you have been affected by each other. Think of the possibilities.

 

Life Lesson Number 4

ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS

Although the big accomplishments in life are important, sometimes it’s the little things in life that are more enjoyable. The conversations with you best friend in the middle of the night, or a quiet moment somewhere peaceful where you were just able to think, can add up to be much more important and memorable than any big thing.

 

Life Lesson Number 3

DON’T SWEAT THE SMALL STUFF

Many times in life, people begin getting concerned with petty things. What people forget is that in the long run, it doesn’t matter what “he said” or what “she did.” It’s not worth your time to get worked up about anything small or petty.

 

Life Lesson Number 2

HOLD ON TO YOUR FRIENDS

No matter what happens in your life, good or bad, your friends will be there for you. Whether it is a pat on the back or a shoulder to cry on that you need, your friends are there for you always.

 

Life Lesson Number 1

MAKE EVERY DAY COUNT

Life is Short and we never know how long we are going to have. We must live life to the fullest EVERY DAY. Everything we do should have a greater purpose. We should never throw any opportunities away.

 

These life lessons were written by Kimberly Joy Costa, a 19-year old who passed away on July 24,2000 after her battle with hodgkins disease. These words were presented to TEAM in TRAINING participants at the Walt Disney World Marathon on January 6, 2002 by her Dad.

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