Lord, I am your instrument

This entry is not written by me. I was just an instrument, a vehicle for something very grand and heartwarming. And for the little girl named Dezma that stole my heart and the heart of all who met her.

Lord, make me an instrument of your peace,
Where there is hatred, let me sow love;
Where there is injury, pardon;
Where there is doubt, faith;
Where there is despair, hope;
Where there is darkness, light;
Where there is sadness, joy.
O Divine Master,
grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled, as to console;
to be understood, as to understand;
to be loved, as to love.
For it is in giving that we receive.
It is in pardoning that we are pardoned,
and it is in dying that we are born to Eternal Life.

Soooo…. Myssie-loo!
Earlier this year you posted a beautiful face of a young “fighter” on your Facebook page (Dezma). I was completely mesmerized by her smile and taken by her story.
My mom and I have been making quilts out of saved kid’s clothes for a few years now and my heart wanted to make a quilt for Dezma, as she was spending a lot of time in the hospital and was fighting so terribly hard for her life. So I messaged her uncle Adolfo through FB and offered to make her a quilt, from her favorite old t-shirts and clothes, if she had any to spare, as a gift.
I was devastated though in early March to learn that she had passed… More saddened, I had still not heard from her uncle. My heart absolutely sank. I was so very upset. And then a few weeks later I received a message from Adolfo that Dezma’s mom wanted me to make “her” the quilt from Dezma’s favorite t-shirts!!! And my life’s purpose changed, again! She sent us enough clothes to make her TWO quilts!… I think about losing my child, Myssie, and not wanting to let go…. of anything. I can’t imagine, I don’t even want to, so we make a “comfort place” to be, under memories and reminders.
It’s not an accident you’re “here” Myssie-loo, in moments you may never ever know about. It’s not an accident or coincidence you have such a huge impact in sooooo many people’s lives. I want to Thank You, Myssie, for bringing all our lives together without effort or intention. Quietly you aspire, and with enough “buzz” you inspire! I’m so blessed to know you. As a mommy of two young, beautiful healthy girls, I feel so grateful and honored to have been able to do this for Dezma’s mom. It would not have ever “been” had it not been for YOU and your sublime place in this Universe!!! Many many many hugs to you from me and my mom and my girls, we have all been deeply affected in many wonderful ways by Dezma’s life journey and the making of this quilt…..and because surely the stars had become perfectly aligned for this gift, through “your” own fight and journey.
dezmas blanket

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